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The Church in Ruins

by John Foulcher

  

1

 

It struck our apartments, that

first bomb, kicked out the walls,

 

scattered our earthly goods

all over the street. We heard cries.

 

The second grabbed hold

of the road, shook it out, sent cars

 

spinning into the supermarket.

A third hit the bank, withdrew

 

all our life savings. An ATM lurched

past us, tumbled like a gymnast

 

into the grocery, where fruit split

like livers or spleens, it was all

 

dismemberment. Then another bomb,

and another, until only the church

 

stood below its spire, its holy

transmission, turning its other cheek.

 

We took shelter there, in that

stained glass trance, that calm. Then

 

the rose window blew in, showered us

with shards of heavenly truth.

 

2

 

The nave trickles through slats of sour

air. The walls are crusts of shadow,

the floor a sea of dust and grit, the pulpit

listing above the pews. At the altar,

a splintered frieze of the lamb and the risen sun,

a rusty glow across an empty chalice,

deciduous gold apostles. The light

in the sanctuary is a dull, ashen

 

scratch. It is not unlike nightfall.

The church creaks, as if at sea. A trickle

of voice from the priest, his prayers

about cost and forgiveness. Outside, iridescence.

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Oriole

by Allyson Weekes

The curtain shrouds my room my heart my lungs from Sahara’s fine and dangerous dust
Your hesitant scales cut the air                 I am silent at the window with my phone
to catch your voice.                                Through my world’s veil I capture your life’s art, or try

It is one of five tunes you play, the one                 where you test the air
You can hear my heart beating, I am sure  though I think I am absolutely still
just as I hear you shift on the branch.                   I know when you glide from soursop
to guava.                                               I long to lay eyes on your careless vigilant beauty
but you will be gone if the curtain shifts, if you hear my heart change, my weight fall

The curtain lifts lightly                air whispers on my bare belly
I let my arm fall to 90˚ so the blood fills my fingertips, four minutes in.

I delude myself I have captured you         you are there, gone.

Are you here, singing this rare song, to celebrate
yesterday’s first rains, come too soon?  Are you here to mourn the two lost weeks? 

You have moved, and from the carambola I hear your other song, and then I know,
what you sing, what we do, you on the branch, I in the house, listening invisible
to each other’s hearts, your need to keep moving, my jitter
after a night without sleep, my hand suspended in the air your voice splits, your head
on the curtained stage, bobbing as you listen                     to me
the insects teeming at the root                 the quick wings of the next threat
what I know now after years of inhaling the dust of my ancestors
my heart’s quiver is your song.

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Dereliction: And the Ocean Too Weeps 

by Salim Bhimji

 

Through restless centuries I have powered

Heroic onslaughts by commanders

Of the great empires. 

 

Across the ages, man has longed to unravel

The mystique that shrouds me.

The scholars of science reach 

 

For me to uncover secrets of the past.

Pioneering men seeking out new lands

Deemed me the crowning conquest. 

 

Mighty industries flourish because of me

And dynasties shaped, by men

Who wove their steel through me.

 

For entrenched within, like incipient gems,

I meld the very elements with which kingdoms

Power prosperity. Yet no man can own me.

 

Agile and self-replenishing

I am a mirror of the heavens,

Nestling every rhythm, in cycles rippling.

 

To the unwitting I am formidable.

But the same seek solace in me;

In the soft, soothing songs

That dance through my being.

 

I am the cradle of life for billions.

 

Yet, for all my elegance, I am now bereft;

Wounded. The turning tides, so harsh,

Have left me ravaged; in anguish.

 

How I yearn to be cherished again. Grant me the dignity

I deserve. That dignity which was once unspoken,

Then, almost broken.

 

To survive, I must search     reach     clutch

At new ways to reinvent myself.

A mere ritual since times long past.

 

Except these are dark days

And I face ferocious thunders ahead.

Yes, I am wrenched by the unknown.

 

Though known by many names, I am unique.

That I might look invincible 

Is simply part of the mystique. 

 

Beyond the drifted ocean,

A heroine’s grief, spoken. 

Salim Bhimji is a research and data analyst based in the United Kingdom. He is an Executive Director of Ocean Press & Publishing Ltd. He began his creative writing education at the Poetry School in London and describes himself as an "incurable student" of poetry.

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Mother Takes Molly Home

by Lelawattee Manoo-Rahming

 

On the evening I saw a jet trail orange-pine

in a bluejay blue sky, I thought of you. It was the Great Mother

swirling, with love, two strands of hair into one curl.

I knew she was braiding Brahma and Jehovah to make you

whole       once more – a little Indian girlbaby suckling

at my nani’s breasts which smelled of cows and burnt cane,

though you could not know it then.

 

One time, we looked at a photo of you, black and white,

smooth-faced, pretty in your midcalf fit and flare dress. No sari

for you, a fifties fashionable teenager. You said you never

liked living in Curepe. I asked why. You answered, “I just didn’t.”

I did not press you. But now I think

you couldn’t voice the words to speak of the stink

of unmarketable tomatoes rotting in the fields

amid odorous piles of cow dung; or to tell me about the boys

who tried to pull down your panty. You were a strong eleven-year-old

and they had no bookbags. You swung yours, filled with books,

like Hanuman’s Mace – the boys scattered like Rawan’s foot soldiers.

 

You never felt safe after that

 

Perhaps, when you got the Civil Service job, it was the way

your colleagues snickered when they spoke of “dem coolie people” –

three little word-daggers mutilating your self-esteem, so when you looked

at your neighbours, you felt shame. Then you became a Witness and married

a young David. Did he heal your scars when he took you away?

Did Uncle David’s africaness veil your coolieness?

 

Years later, for the first time, you cooked curry mango –

fragrant julie spiced with karapule. You were hesitant.

There was no need: it was moreish, like your coconut ice-cream

that we hand-cranked, our young mouths watering;

and your icebox cream-of-wheat cake, tasty like halwa.

 

On your last morning, you could not eat, you complained of heartburn.

That night, as you clutched your breaking heart,

no one else roamed your house         Except the Goddess

She caught you as you fell and cradled your body, humming a lullaby.

 

The evening I saw the jet trail, my heart soared.

I watched you re-bloom into my radiant Tanty Molly. I thank

the Goddess for making you whole, for taking you home.

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Easter Candles

by Kelly Norah Drukker

 

Park Extension, Montreal, 2022

 

We meet in the middle

of the street, stamping cold.

 

From the church steps, floodlights glow.

The voice of the cantor echoes

against the pavement, sings

from the raw belly of sorrow.

 

The rising notes dip

as they fall, arrowing

toward their hidden mark.

   

Under night clouds, the sky

is a thin skin, stretched grey.

 

Beneath it, others shelter

in basements, factories. Bombs,

exhumed from memory’s vault

explode, real as day.

 

The church doors open,

a seam, spilling light.

 

Mothers walk, stately, gripping candles;

children dart beyond reach,

dodge fathers who smoke, laugh,

as fireworks streak the air.

 

A young woman approaches,

Christos Anesti

dips her flame to our cups

 

and we glow,

 

a chorus of firelight, glimmering

lives trailing home, guarding the flame

with tinfoil and lanterns.

 

We weave through streets

grandmothers blessed, long ago

on their midnight walks—

 

keepers of the hearth, they knew

how a light could be snuffed

by a careless hand.

 

In this stone-grey season, we raise

our candle tips, etch a cross

above our door, please bless this place

 

if but a wisp of smoke

could cross the ocean,

mark each doorway safe.

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The Man Who Repairs Electric Chairs Speaks of Art

by Damen O’Brien 

 

If you must do something, do it well. My father taught me that,

he’d send the chisel searching through the wood, the mallet

followed, tapping like a bird sorting seed, and coiling for him,

the scrolls and mugging ogres, arching cats, sinuous snakes and

dragons, in bannisters and handles, and the rails of rich men.

Even when he knew the detail would be missed, the message lost,

a cunning nick of wood to make an eye, a flourish for a tongue,

his initials in the branches of a fruiting tree. I have a different grace:

I replace the perished leather, make the buckles bright, polish

what can be polished. I have my ticket, so I can check the fuses,

rub machine oil in each junction, torque the screws just so. I am

my father’s son in that. The State is happy with my service and

when I come home from a hard day’s work, I spend what gentleness,

what art remains upon my child. We have a joke we tell whenever

the brownouts that come in summer make the light flicker, when they

make that burning afterglow and when our little TV zaps into

a point and won’t return. Was that one of yours, Daddy? She will say,

and I say, not one of mine. All of mine work perfectly every time.

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Hamoukar

by Ross Gillett

 

Located in what is now Syria, the city of Hamoukar, a centre of the obsidian trade, was destroyed around 3500 BC. Slings and thousands of ovoid clay bullets have been found. This may be evidence of the earliest urban warfare known in the Middle East ( joint Syrian-American expedition 1999-2010)

 

 

Hamoukar

                    there’s a new you 

            orange black clouds

                                    unfurling from the earth

                        dark blooms lined with fire

                                                            the incinerated marketplace

                                                doused cars

                                                                  triggered steam

                                                     thermal vents in the wreckage

                            shapes of ash and dust and vapor

                                                                the dead escape the superheated streets

 

 

Hamoukar

                     we found you

            infested with the handiwork of your enemy

                                    lethal seeds

                             a murderous clay grain

where are your trade routes now

                                           your obsidian history

                                                                    your craftsmen hunched over dark glass

                                    it’s oil instead of obsidian now

                        a market trade truly unprotected

                                                               frail stalls blown away

 

 

Hamoukar

                        obliterated city

            your people are old earth

                                    we who are good at turning people into earth salute you

                flag bearer for the wrecked civilisations

                                                with your excavated grid

                            your bewildered bones

                                       you taught history everything it knows

                                 people are dust

                                                     families exist to be torn apart

                                          no one lives anywhere

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achievement

by Ross Belot

 

all morning we have had

rain so i have been inside

dealing with small things

the phone tells there are

flood warnings in Milwaukee

that is a long day drive

from here the place you

and i searched for graves

the place with its own

beer and food i liked that

my white cat naps beside

me on the beige couch he

has been dying and not

dying for months now today

he is not oh little boy i say

to him as he wakes stretches

old cat eyes shine green

half there the insurance co

leaves a message that is

urgent but impossible to

return small things some-

times crumble like christmas

wishes it is spring rain stops

but is promised to come

again why would you want

to do anything else i ask

i do not i answer sitting in

this end of an ending feels

frothy writing this poem with

a cup of tea the one from the

other day you started for me

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Stuffed Little Puppy

by Dora Rumbold

 

I keep a stuffed little puppy by my side when I go to sleep at night

She’s been my best friend since I was four

When my dad bought her from Toy Dreams at Strathcona Square

She was a tiny little chihuahua with a hole in her back but I loved her very dearly

My dad did his best to sew her up, and on days when the world feels like too much

I trace my fingers over the messy brown stitches, asking myself

How did we get here?

I even brought her to my first Show and Tell in kindergarten

Proudly showing her off in her hot pink fluffy sweater

I remember the day I dropped her in the toilet and my mom found me crying in the bathroom

She fished her out and threw her in the washing machine while I waited for her to be clean

 

I remember when my stuffed little puppy was there

The first time I was admitted to the psych ward

She kept me safe and I held on her tightly

But she had so much love to give

I had to share her with the others

Held by the hands of patients whose wrists had deep wounds

My stuffed little puppy would come to life

Giving them kisses on the nose and whispering to them

You’ve made it this far my friend

See what happens if you keep going!

 

She said those words to me when I cried in my bed while I was on vacation with a friend

The day I realized what he did to me

She sat beside my head while my tears rained over the pillow

Speaking to me softly

Giving a kiss on my nose

My stuffed little puppy repeated

 

It’s not your fault

 

It’s not your fault

 

You’ve made it this far my friend

 

See what happens if you keep going!

 

She kissed my nose again

 

 

It will never be your fault.

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A Killing, Corazon de Madera

 by Abigail Ardelle Zammit

Rio Negro, Armila

 

 

the medicine man said

awaken the wood with breath with fire

the spirit of the tree

dwells in each branch

 

but we heard a trickle in the foliage

gluttonous river

bearing traces of wave of tide

Rio Negro rooted in tree's trunk

 

ibe igua qirsu naba

naki naki asiswar

 

we grasped the machete

as if it were part of our longing

 

fearing caimans

nameless birds

dressed in night’s electric blue

 

he said never sever the trunk

so we chopped it down

 

tree had traces of mud

salt-soul from the Pacific

 

igua ila nispero naki

 

we grasped the machete

as if it were part of our longing

 

ibe ila ila

sobga asiswar

 

a clean unwavering cut

 

 

"Corazon de Madera” - literally meaning “the wood's heart,” which the natives would never remove.  Instead, they cut some of the branches of the oldest trees to keep the wood for its healing and spiritual power, praying over it to awaken it.  All italicized words refer to different types of trees in the Guna language, spoken amongst the indigenous Cunas of San Blas, Panama.

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Enduring Love

by Miranda Pearson

                         

Fields after rain. Cobbled, set with silver coin,

shining hoof prints and chevron. River that dreams

 

itself road. I'm foolish for lovingly kissing you,

sorrow for all the people you've hurt, a virus spreading.

 

The train is cancelled—a body on the track.

A man shouts at me for wearing a mask.

 

I'm a posh girl so polite and forgiving,

nannying you, tripping over myself.

 

Why don't you fuck off and retire, sit by a river.

Watch the ducks bred to be shot by the rich,

 

their flights as if suiciding, their sudden hangings.

Dogs bark and bark. A branch bent across the path

 

like a Dubai arch. Your hands the bones

of your feet their long skeletons. You say

 

the purpose of life is to pass it on. Look down

into the well, a portal to the underworld where the

 

herd gallop, jump into where the deer live, and the fox.

Sex, I don't miss it, aside from when I see tufts of grass

 

growing in the mud, waving, and when the wind is

blasting in my head and the perfume of the wood

 

before we burn it, like human hair.

Your greedy mating above the flood line, a statue

 

from where my weakness stems. I read you.

The two ways of leaving, like tulips

 

shrivelling or mad opening. Let us be the second.

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The Nighthawk Swallows Its Prey in Flight

by Laura Zacharin

 

Nighthawk, from Dictionary of Obscure SorrowsA recurring thought that strikes you late at night…

 

A hairshirt is worn against the chest. Also known as sackcloth or cilice/cilicium

from “Cilicia”, where wild goats run free and the cloth originated. Twigs

 

are woven in to irritate the underlying skin. Nighthawk

is a misnomer. The nighthawk flies at dawn, feeds on clouds

 

of insects hovering at streetlamps and other light sources, including nightlights

Hard heartedness, inadvertently, under duress or willingly, by foolish talk, improper

 

thoughts. Bristles surround a tiny beak to help corral the prey.  Nighthawk eats

and defecates in flight. In the small hours when the rest of the world sleeps the blue sleep

 

of the innocent I try on the shirt the nighthawk brings me, bespoke, make sure

the fit is right and the bristles irritate just enough but not so much that I can’t wear it

 

under ordinary clothing. Things you can do in a hairshirt: watch tv, preferably

a long dramatic series with 8 seasons and a simple plot line, apologize

 

even though the person on the other end is sleeping, eat cereal

from the box, bite your nails until they’re even or they’re bleeding, whichever 

 

comes first, feed your dog, play online scrabble. The 8 letters

of my online scrabble game line up to spell GUILTWOE. I can’t play this

 

as one word. The board won’t accept it. Even if everyone else

is asleep. Other things you can do are harder to recall, drowned out

 

by the whoosh of nighthawk wings and its sharp electric peent call, and of course,

the pungent odor of its defecation. For example, peel off sections

 

of the brilliant Murcott mandarin, brew small batch coffee, listen for the footsteps

running down the stairs when the toast pops up or that song comes on. The smell

 

of freshly laundered sheets, and the dog breathing is unbearable. If only I didn’t have

these bristles poking into my skin my life would be perfect. Ascetics, penitents

 

and saints etc. consider the discomfort akin to fasting. I also fast. I call it fasting

but the truth is I’ve lost my appetite. At night I lock and double bolt. Turn off

 

the porch lights, my devices. Windows and doors are air-tight with caulking. A kettle

of nighthawks can be made of thousands of these crepuscular birds. It will bring you

 

to your knees. I can’t tell where the voice comes from. It comes from everywhere

Hundreds or thousands of tiny bristled nighthawk beaks. I bend forward to my knees

 

Committed openly or secretly, knowingly, unknowingly, with evil talk, coercion

by disrespect for, by scoffing, with impudence, prattle of the lips.

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Theatre

by Anthony Lawrence

 

 

My father was home after an operation

to remove an aggressive cancer

called glioblastoma. He told the surgeon

and anaesthetist he was happy

 

to remain awake so he could entertain

theatre with his jokes, but in the end

he said, with a lop-sided grin, his offer

was ruefully declined. This was prior

 

to his stories of a previous life

as a Mindoro Dwarf buffalo, and after

he started missing buttons on his shirt

while dressing, and closing the door

 

repeatedly on his foot, getting into the car.

I like to count the scalpels in my stape,

he said. He'd started spoonerizing things.

At the butcher he asked for a lack of ram.

 

I've still no idea if his wordplay

was intentional, or if scarring on his brain

had gifted him the art of vowel-reversal.

We were watching cricket

 

on television, the sound turned down.

A bowler was at the end of his run,

scraping a line with his boot

the way some animals mark ground.

 

You've got less than a quarter of a second

to play a shot when this bloke bowls,

dad said. The camera panned around

the crowd and came to rest on a woman


applying sunscreen to her face.

What is this? A passion farade?

We watched the game in silence.

Swallows were skimming their own shadows

 

from the outfield grass.

A Mexican wave stalled then died

at the Members enclosure. A line of sunlight

shivered and pushed off from the fence. 

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Autumn

by Leila Chatti 

Her crying unfinished
but the day forged on, requiring her
ordinary labor. The cat
with its innocent hunger.
Trash festering below the sink.
She listened for some proof
she was loved, but God was busy
not existing. Then she looked a while
at the sun through the tree
through the window, otherwise
unframed. Well, not the sun
but the light she understood
as the sun, as so often she confused
something’s origin with its consequence—and she thought
this substitution might reveal something
important about her, then
she thought there might be nothing important
about her, and a little
residual feeling welled up
and whatever it was kept shining shining shining. 

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The Venus Effect

by John D. Kelly

 

after The Rokeby Venus by Diego Velázquez

 

Feather-light fingers flap, ruffle. They arch like

the tips of my wings. My quills are in a swan's way.

 

A Frenchman's gloved hands. White shadows

on a curtain of velvety blackness. A stage. A silent

movie miming the fantasy of a Bolshoi Ballet.

 

A black pen flying, gliding then landing − splashing

into the inky murk of an artificial lake in Combray.

 

Watch me closely. For once I’m without my bow.

 

The ghosts of a Beatle and no less than three

marvellous Marcels invoke more than the Spaniard

in this work. Umbras and penumbras caress you

They overlap inside you, plumb the very depth of you.

 

Can you sense them? Can you feel them

in the wings − in the shadows within passages

of lost time played out in mimed motion

hidden, much too long, in the lamp-black darkness?

 

Let your involuntary memory snag 

on the lead-laced impasto of an old coloured palette.

 

Let the medium of linseed oil and turpentine conjure up

the acrid smell of gasoline that once filtered through

 

your nostril hair. Time to be away in a bus with Bishop

and that female moose. You’ll see Duchamp at his work,

taking the piss again with a porcelain fountain before

charging his brush to begin to paint a naked muse frozen,

 

a multi-facetted woman descending a staircase again and

again in a futuristic haste while a crystal-clear hourglass

form, safe-set in fine-turned cherry-wood, shares all

its sterile cubist ore through a conjoined neck − a waist.

 

Those grains of sand are, again, my silvered looking-

glass. They have melted and fused, once more, in a heat

as hot as was Her embrace when Diego asked me to cast

that glance from Venus back, to also paint Her face.

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Sturgeon Devouring His Son

by Leanne Dunic

 

 

For fear of being usurped      

Saturn ate his children

 

My father taught me how to feed myself

How to gut snapper, rock cod, flounder

He put names to each berry    creature          tree

And spoke of  an ancient fish             that could live over a hundred years

That still live

 

Sturgeon have endured salmon infested with sea lice           

             lures gasoline fabric foam bottlecaps batteries diapers razors masks

Growing demand for their caviar

 

Decades ago, as my friend learned of warming oceans, extinctions

And the endless          more   

She declared   with love and seriousness

I have to kill my children                    yet she didn’t

Have the strength       

Now, they’re grown

––with hearts breaking, environmental anxiety

And an app that delivers tuna tataki in forty minutes

 

To avoid maternity, I swallowed pills

Until I learned of the             estrogen and progesterone

I pissed into the river––the one already weakened 

From extra celsius                  diminished salmon and smelt

 

The same river where a fisherman took the photograph

I’ve titled       Sturgeon Devouring His Son 

 

Food scarcity, they say, due to floods, pollution, overfishing––

One must eat child or stone

 

Tongue on his spawn

A sturgeon survives

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Midwestern Film Summit

by Ash Adams

 

This place is only like the movies 

in that there are no mothers 

or they are only here to kill you.

I am not the princess or the servant girl.

I am the yard covered in pink flamingoes, 

or I am one pink flamingo 

caught in a spotlight I thought I could outrun, 

but my legs are backwards, plastic, and I have just one of them.

Really, I am the toilet-papered tree, but forgive me, viewer,

 

if there is no folding chair, no gaunt woman in the driveway 

smoking all the cigarettes in my mind,

yelling about how fast the cars drive by, 

how will the protagonist hold her girlfriend

in the kind of summer light that sets everyone on fire

while someone says Ohio rivers burn forever?

How will someone call her a survivor

as though it is a good thing.

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Home Range Nocturne

by Sam Morley

 

Somewhere up on the hill, Sellotape

straps carnations to street saplings

there are big painted letters on the road’s

camber where the boy was pack hunted

and his stabbed heart lost its air, hardening

from a thin glow to flecks of tar.

I never walked that pavement’s buckle

I turned before his loose-leaf shrine

and the boy with pools at his feet stayed

out of reach under a slice of streetlamp.

 

As I went on, words jabbing my tongue

were depletion and squander and waste

they covered the field of this wine

dark morning where I walked my pup

in rags of night, twitching at every Frog-

Mouth landing and leaving with its haul.

If the words turned then to absence

there was surely something present

bopping between tallgrass, parting

pond reeds, the vixen’s pelt flaming up

 

embankments loose with clay stone.

And when the blades of its eyes flashed

strobic to my gut, its stainless steel

unblinking, its trot struck out toward us.

I waited, watching as my dog (with no wild

left in it) had no sense that dying

has a definitive snick and downwind the pad

of predation came calm, two fox stars

meant only for those caught seeking.

So I stayed my right to bloody an animal

 

the word I longed for then was question

asking each flare of hair, each twitch-wire

what is the value of running or staying

when the whoop of a killer comes.

And that thick arm of fire-tail drifted out

then in in the sparked air between, turning

to find another tear in world, staying low

to the ground and spiriting toward that hill

drawn to something silent before light

before the day’s promise and its peril.

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